Knowing the way my brains have worked thru the years, I'm sure at first, it would have been second nature. Slowly, I'd grow increasingly more ashamed of it. "Not in front of company!" "Not at the dinner table!" "Take yer thumb outta yer mouth an' SPEAK!"
Not to mention "God sees everything you do, and knows what you're going to do before you do, and could snatch us up at any minute! With Rapture! With Violence and Death! With a Flaming Sword, or a chariot with wheels within wheels!".. You get the drift. Nowhere would be safe to just be myself, happy and content with the world.
So now as an adult, I'd want to be able to reclaim myself in so many ways, and now I'd realize I could do it again without fear of penalty. And feel whole again, comforted and calm.
What if there was a pill to get that feeling back again? Without having to suck my thumb? Would I do it? Would you?
Your 2nd paragraph is all too familiar to me. It was beat into our brains to think this way. And sure, what if God does know what you're going to do before you do it? So what? If you're living for Him, why do you need to live in fear? And what about God's AMAZING grace? Yes, we sin. It separates us from God. But He is quick and just to forgive us all unrighteousness, if we come to him and repent! There is no NEED to live in FEAR! That's not the life that God wants for you, or me, or anyone. Fear comes from the devil who wants to keep us from living the life God has for us! God's will is that NONE should perish but that ALL (YOU included) would spend eternity with Him! The God that we were taught growing up is NOT the God who has shown himself to me as an adult. He is a God of LOVE. I love you, Joce! - Rach
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